i just hate it when i feel this way.
can you guys actually believe im missing the times being at home?
yes i know it sounds as though i haven't been home for days weeks or months
but the feeling is just there.
sounds kinda homesick, eh?

i remember feeling like this before during my last semester's holiday as i was busy working on night shift.
but this time round? it sucks even more.
everytime when it's time for me to leave for work, i feel ... sad.
yes, sad is the word.

i guess the main reason is because, i feel more attached to my family now.
especially my brother.
haha! may sound kinda mushy.
but it's just that, recently this year, to me he's a total different person from before.
we used to quarrel like, almost everyday just over the computer.
or we just couldn't accept one another's personality or character.
we even laid hands on one another before :x
But sometimes, people learn as they grow.

whenever my brother or mum ask me whether im working for the night.
and when i reply them with a yes, i don't know why but i just sense this "wha sian" kind of look.
& by then, i will leave for work with a heavy heart.

i think my brother's a great guy.
(besides being stingy HAHAHAHHAHA)
i enjoy those moments of late nights, it's just him & me awake while the rest are asleep.
using the computer in our individual rooms,
watching tv,
sharing a packet of potato chips 'cause eating one whole packet alone means consuming more fats,
sharing downloaded movies/songs,
laughing at funny people/things,
or even just having general talk.

i feel so happy to realise early enough what a great brother i actually have.

a confidant, a friend, a brother.
i love you korkor! hehe!

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i just heard news that one of my colleague is performing her last day of work today.
feels kinda sad actually..
i may not be that close with her but i just don't like the scene of people coming and going :(
oh well, but what can i do?
just wish her all the best in her future endeavors :))


anyhooo,
that's all for today!
tooodles ~